I’m not sure which of my two ideas I like so I will be doing a write up for each.
- My health – mental and physical
One of the things I want more than anything is my health. I have struggled with my mental health or physical health or both for most of my life. Health struggles have been crippling in my life and have affected things that are important to me. The thought of waking up every day with a body that isn’t in pain and a head that isn’t overthinking is something I can hardly imagine. Physically I have spent the last 10 years dealing with hormonal and reproductive health issues, only in the last year was the word endometriosis even brought up and treatment still hasn’t come into the picture. Mentally I have struggled with depression, anxiety, ADHD, and some mood instability, as well as the mental effects of my ever-changing hormones since I was about 12. This is important to me because I am often debilitated by physical pain or plagued by intrusive thoughts that bar me from doing what I truly want or need to be doing. Our time on earth is so finite and the thought of spending so much of my time as a shell of myself scares me. There are a lot of obstacles for me in achieving my health:
- finding the right doctors (which has been very challenging)
- finding the time to drive how my doctors’ appointments
- lack of treatment
- finding the right medications
- it requires taking incredibly good care of myself
- learning disabilities sometimes make my mental health worse
- I had childhood epilepsy which led to a discovery of an overactive lobe in my brain which has been associated with my mood
- the looming thought every month that there will be 4ish days that month where I will likely be in excruciating pain
In my talisman I want to highlight:
- reproductive health and my hopes to have kids
- mental illness and the constant battle it is
- routine, and how much is helps me to maintain my help
- how far I’ve come with these struggles, how much more I could do without them
Keywords:
- health
- mental illness
- hormonal inbalance
- hopes for children
- imbalance
- feel the same every day
- pain
- resilience
- routine
- even
- help
2. “Perfection”
I have always had an imperfected, skewed version of what perfection is to me, and I have always strived for this ideal of mine. I am a perfectionist, which isn’t always great, but I have very high expectations of myself that I always aspire for. To be the “perfect” life I imagine begins with me being the “perfect” version of myself, to me that means being intelligent, successful, interesting, funny, passionate, loved, attractive, and challenged. I always strived to be an “anomaly”, someone who is unlike others.
There are many obstacles to this goal of mine:
- there is not such thing as perfection
- health and mental health issues
- unforeseen circumstances
- life happens
- the breadth of my goal
- my capabilities
Aspects I want to highlight in my talisman:
- success
- love & family
- finically stability
- that my version of perfect is imperfect
- learning
- challenges
- meaning
Keywords:
- perfection
- imperfection
- passion
- love
- intelligence
- success
- security
- happiness
- satisfaction
- future
